An excited expecting mum soon became disappointed when she found out the gender of her baby - and admitted her "heart sank".
Monique Tibbott desperately wanted another girl with her partner, Brandon but was reduced to tears when she found out she was having a boy instead. She was "adamant" she was having another girl and claimed all she knew was pink.
The mum-of-two said she is "terrified" to raise a boy after enjoying life being a 'girl mum' and said she spent the days after the gender reveal party in tears. However, she said she now regrets her reaction and feels guilty for being so upset.
Monique, 21, from New South Wales, Australia, said: "All I know is pink. All I know is being a girl mom - I have never experienced raising a boy and it's just terrifying to me. I feel so guilty and like the worst mom in the world because when I saw the baby's gender in that cake, my heart sank.
"I'm going to feel guilty for the rest of my life for how I reacted; I'm never going to forget how I thought when I first found out about him." Throughout her pregnancy, she had convinced herself she was having another girl following on from her daughter Delilah , and thought she'd be better equipped for another girl.
But that fantasy quickly faded away at the gender reveal, and she showed her true feelings with her reaction. She then said she spent the next few days 'in tears' as she tried to process the news - but is worried she has tarnished the special day with her emotions.
Having a son scares the mum-to-be, and fears raising a boy will be a 'completely different' scenario. She also said she has struggled to find a boy's name she likes, compared to being full of ideas for girl's names. However, she is angry at how she reacted and took to TikTok to admit her 'mum guilt'.
She said her emotions are 'all over the place' and added: "I feel angry at myself for how I reacted because I should have just been grateful and happy that he's healthy and that I have the fertility ability to carry a baby.
"I know that probably pregnancy hormones are a huge factor to play here, but I think that I was just more shocked and not able to process it because I was so certain I was having a girl. I just feel very alone, and I feel so bad for Brandon because I ruined his day. He was so excited, and I just dimmed it with my reaction."
After she harshly branded herself the 'worst mum in the world', fellow mums were quick to reassure Monique after finding themselves in similar situations. Praising her honesty, one TikToker wrote: "Gender disappointment is so real and you are such a brave person for sharing," while another added: "I felt the same, I'm a mum of 5 BOYS. I never spoke about it because of the judgement. I sat alone with it, and I couldn't understand why I'd have boys, I was certain I was going to be a girl mom."
A third commented: "Gender disappointment is real. Please don't feel guilty. I felt a bit sad also when I found out my first was a boy. He is my heart and actually shares more of my interests than my daughter does."
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